New Book: The Disastrous Bet, or How I became a Woman against my Will

Heavily in debt after an unwise weekend binge in Las Vegas, Chad and Marianne Brown accept an impulsive bet from a mysterious businessman. One hand of blackjack: if Chad wins, the businessman will give the couple the $25,000 they need to resume their lives. If he loses, they still get the money – in the form of a loan. The catch is that Chad must agree to a process of feminization – one change every week for a year

One Man’s Story of Forced Feminization, Humiliation, Denial and Cuckoldry. And revenge.

Heavily in debt after an unwise weekend binge in Las Vegas, Chad and Marianne Brown accept an impulsive bet from a mysterious businessman. One hand of blackjack: if Chad wins, the businessman will give the couple the $25,000 they need to resume their lives.

If he loses, they still get the money – in the form of a loan. The catch is that Chad must agree to a process of feminization – one change every week for a year or until the money is repaid, with ten percent interest per month – or their home reverts to the businessman.

 
After Chad loses, it begins simply enough, but as his body gradually changes, and his clothes get more and more feminine he starts to have doubts. When he feels his inner desires changing too, it gets alarming. Meanwhile, Marianne has found a better job and is paying off all their other debts and insists that they must continue through with the deal as agreed so they can live the good life Chad always promised her.

 
After unknowingly being subjected to hormone treatment part of the way through the year, Chad is rendered impotent. He is distressed, and Marianne’s cheerful “adjustments” to everything that happens, and her apparent passion for the man who made the bet with Chad and now holds the reins, make him more doubtful than ever. Their bedroom behavior also leave him feeling more degraded and less of a man than ever.

 
Chad is inexorably becoming “Jennifer,” and as everyone is starting to treat him like a woman, his old self feels like a distant memory. Marianne, though, has never had so much fun, and when she develops a relationship with the man who is feminizing Chad, Chad begins to wonder whether he’ll ever be back to himself, and whether Marianne wants him back the way he was. He even starts wondering whether the game he lost was completely honest.

 
And then there comes a moment of truth that changes everything.

 
This is Chad’s story, told through the words of his journal, with a preface by Jennifer.

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Getting Hubby Ready for More

I’ve enjoyed getting hubby ready for dates – as my new girlfriend. #feminization, #forced-fem

Feminizing Hubby

As I have alluded to already, Alex wasn’t a completely good boy for me during the time I was sick, and this gave me an excuse to try something I’ve been meaning to do for a while now. It’s all this writing about forced feminization! I guess lots of the things we’ve done might count as that, considering all the ways I have him “help” me – from getting dressed for dates to, umm, “entertaining” them. I do love to get him to help me pick out my clothes (especially the lingerie) we both know will be used to seduce other men. Before I got sick, I’d even taken to having him help me with hair-care (shaving), and having him give me manis and pedis before the dates, too.

But I’ve thought it might be nice having him accompany me a little more often on dates or pickups. Of course, if people thought he was a guy it might cause hesitation with guys not into that, so I’ve been playing with the thought: what if he went with me as a girlfriend? Would that be fun?

He’s never been into cross-dressing. Sure, I have often made him wear panties or stockings when I went on dates – or when I brought them home – but that was mostly to make the other guys feel more comfortable, you know? Or to remind Alex what was happening after I’d left. Last night I thought we might try something a little more fundamental.

“Come here, Alex,” I said.

We Reach an Agreement

He came over, and I gestured in a way he understood. He pulled his pants down to show me his cage.

I gestured a little further, and everything came off. He’s well-trained by now, even if he isn’t above taking advantage of a situation from time to time. When he was standing in front of me with nothing on but the cage, I went to my lingerie drawer and pulled out a g-string and handed it to him. He put it on without complaint.

Next came the bra which I ordered a month or two ago. It’s big enough to fit around him and has nice inserts, too. I put that on him, and he began to look at me with a question in his eye. As is usually the case, I wanted to see how far he would let me go before actually resisting. It amazes me how far he does, and on went the bra without complaint. Next came the blouse and skirt and more alarmed looks, but he obediently stepped into the skirt even though he was somewhat reluctant.

Feminization is Easy!

This stuff is easy! I created a whole elaborate set-up to get Peter to do this in It’s a Woman’s World, and here was Alex just quietly going along with everything I did without a struggle at all! Of course, we’ve had our struggles in the past, so he knows that resistance is futile.

He did resist a little bit when he saw me get out my cosmetics. Or he kind of pulled back, anyway, so I began talking to him. “You took advantage of my illness in several ways, didn’t you, Alex?” I asked as I pulled him closer and began applying the foundation to his face. I think that was the moment of truth right then. If he’d pulled back again and said he didn’t want it before I got the foundation on him it would probably have ended right there – but that’s the way it always is, isn’t it, guys? You can’t decide you don’t want it in time to resist, so we just get our way.

He stammered a little bit about whether he’d done anything wrong while I was sick as I put the foundation on him, and then he began to argue that the little things he’d done didn’t justify serious punishment. It isn’t like I’d gotten out the riding crop! So we argued as I put the makeup on him. I let him say whatever he wanted to say as I tweezed his brows and put the mascara on him, then shushed him as I put on the lipstick. He was ready by the time we’d finished the argument! I wouldn’t say he was exactly ravishing, but he’d do for where we were going, and with the wig on he looked very feminine. No one would recognize him or mistake him for a man in the light we’d be in. That was the important thing.

It was a nice night at the club, and I think Alex made several new friends who will be looking for him next time we go!

It’s A Woman’s World Pt. 3

What I really like about forced feminization stories is that they are so Kafkaesque. You presuppose a sweeping conspiracy where nobody has a conscience. They say crazy things, but since they all back each other up, the person in the middle comes to doubt himself and doesn’t know what to believe. It DOES happen in real life

Almost Done!

Just a brief announcement today to people who are waiting… I have almost finished writing It’s a Woman’s World, Part 3. In this part, some of the secrets behind the fiendish world of It’s a Woman’s World start getting revealed.

As I explained recently to a friend, what I really like about forced feminization stories is that they are so Kafkaesque. You presuppose a sweeping conspiracy where nobody has a conscience. They say crazy things, but since they all back each other up, the person in the middle comes to doubt himself and doesn’t know what to believe.

It is believable, and things like this can and do happen, because we are such social animals. Again I say that It’s a Woman’s World is fiction – completely made up – but do I think there are or could be organizations at work in the world just like it? I’m convinced there are. I hope, therefore, that as kinky and weird as this story is, you will take it as a serious exploration of the human psyche. I think you’ll love it.

Make Your Cuckold Help

A wise dom always makes her cuckold help, when it’s convenient, from planning and dressing for the date to its more intimate moments.

If you are in a cuckolding relationship, you’re always trying to find useful things for your cuckold to do. Things that keep him busy and, at the crucial time, either out of the way or in a place to do something helpful.

Some of my readers have said they were turned on by making hubby help with the dressing prior to a date. That is, make him help pick out the lingerie, ask him how each item looks and whether it shows off your body to its best effect. I do like to do that, and I have made a point of putting more of that in my stories, too. After all, he does know what looks best! J And looking good for him is also an important part of the game.

But I think it’s more important to get him to help in other ways. There’s so much more he can do!

One big thing, of course, is having him set the table and prepare the food for a date if it’s going to be at home – and then it’s fun to have him serve the food and kind of serve as a butler during the meal. My husband makes an excellent cup of coffee in addition to his other talents, and I have found it very helpful for him to have refreshments ready at appropriate intervals.

That way he doesn’t feel so excluded!

And then there are other ways to include him at more intimate moments. My absolute favorite, other than having him prepare me for my boyfriend’s entry, which I always have him do before a date and usually also a little closer to the moment, is to have him stand there in attendance and help keep everything where it should be going. For example, one of my favorite positions is the reverse cowgirl. As you probably know, if you get VERY slippery and are also active, there is a significant chance that something will slip out at a crucial time.

That can necessitate a change of angles or too much wasted time. It’s so much better if you have someone there to kind of put things back where they belong. And there are few more poignant moments for a cuckold than that moment of entry. Or re-entry. Letting him help with that really drives the point home to him, especially if he’s in a chastity cage and couldn’t, himself, drive anything home! Watching him, as he slides the other guy slowly in, is so hot! I never get enough of that feeling, and so it may be that I get a little more careless about the slipping than I might!

A Call to Kink

I’m a live and let live kind of girl. BDSM sex is normal behavior and can give you more pleasure than vanilla sex. You should try it.

I am a believer in, “to each his or her own.” If it isn’t hurting someone else or creating bad things in the world that will hurt someone else, and people like doing it, then why not cheer it on? There are so many things going on in the world, and so many possibilities that one can, or might, explore, that it is almost impossible to decide what is really normal or healthy behavior. It’s a waste of time trying to do that, and a waste of life to hold yourself back from exploring.

Readers of my blog or writing know that I frequent some of those worlds of possibility. One of those is the “Woman’s World.” I also spend a lot of time in the world of cuckolding.

On the surface, I know, it seems that the worlds I create with my writing are hurting people, and there is a nefarious plot behind the It’s a Woman’s World series. It might be hard for the button-down crowd to see It’s a Woman’s World as serious literature that happens to involve a lot of kinky d/s (domination/submission) sex as a serious piece of literature, but it is one. I call it erotica, but it might also be considered a very dark psychological thriller.

But I digress.

My point is that for the most part the characters in my stories are making free choices. Some are happier than others, maybe, but these choices are almost all (at least) within the reaches of normal behavior. Every woman must at some time have fantasized about making love to someone else in front of the fascinated gaze of someone whose intense desire she wanted to stir. We all think that having people mad with desire for us, while we pick and choose whom, if anybody, we wish to please, is erotically stimulating. And almost every – if not actually every – man has at times fantasized about seeing his woman with another man. It’s wired into us.

Either as a pleasure or as punishment. And the weird thing, as we all know, is that there is a place where erotic pleasure and pain seem to merge. BDSM fantasies are one such area, and for many men that means the cuckold fantasy. Feminization is a step further out there, with “forced” being implied as a sort of permission. Isn’t that what submission is all about anyway? Permission to do what taboo forbids.

There is a chemical reason for this. Everyone has heard of endorphins, the pleasure-giving substance that our bodies create at times. Well, our bodies create it in response to weird things (like the smell of vanilla, for example), sexual pleasure, and pain. It appears that our bodies counteract painful situations by releasing pleasure-giving endorphins. That creates the paradoxical effect of pain giving sexual pleasure, and when that pain and its accompanying endorphins are combined with other sexual stimuli that are physically pleasurable, the pleasure can be significantly greater than the pleasure given in straight, non-kinky sex.

And that is why, I am convinced, so many people who taste d/s sex never fully lose the taste for it in the future. In a way, that makes my stories and those like them, dangerous. But no one ever needs to do anything they don’t want to do. Freedom is dangerous, in a way, but it’s what life is all about, too.

Enjoy yourselves. Let yourselves experience things on the fringe. Don’t hurt yourselves or other people, but check out another world. You might find an incredible amount of pleasure and satisfaction if you do. Spread the word!

Crossing the Rubicon

Crossing the Rubicon

Do You Have Cuckold Fantasies? They Could be Dangerous!

Do you fantasize about seeing your woman having sex with another man? Do you fantasize aboutbeing made to watch while she did it? Or not allowed to watch? Do you think that would turn you on?

Jake did, and he worked hard to convince Mona to do it just once. She just agrees to give a chosen guy a blowjob to humor him.

They made a deal …

She was supposed to give another guy a blowjob and then send him out the door. Unfortunately for Jake, she got other ideas when the man she’d chosen made her feel different ways than she’d expected. He did have a much larger cock than Jake, and it surprised her how much it turned her on.

Plus she couldn’t quite forgive Jake for willingly share her with another guy. Isn’t that what losers do?

What could ever be wrong with the multi-orgasmic lifestyle of a hotwife?

If you’re a woman, would you like to make your man watch you have sex with another guy, knowing that he was as turned on as you were, your every orgasm searing into his imagination and turning him wild for you? Or just to enjoy a new guy with new ways to turn you on while your man watched you do it? Isn’t that a win-win?

Mona almost felt that way, but she began to feel more than she’d expected

And unfortunately, the other guy had his own ideas. He wanted Mona for himself, and he ruthlessly made that happen.

Jake is Caged, Feminized, Pegged Repeatedly, Humiliated…

This novella is the story of a man whose deal to watch his wife with another man went terribly wrong.

First he is shunted aside as his wife falls for Jim, the lucky guy. Then Jake is required to participate,forced to give pleasure to his wife’s lover.When he decides he’s had enough of the game, he tries to get out, but he’s watched closely, with his cock in a steel cock cage he can’t get off. He’s made to wear women’s clothes.

His protests are ignored, as he is placed in compromising situation after compromising situation. When he declares his independence with real intent, he’s drugged and subdued.

When He is Finally Allowed to wake up, Jake’s Manhood and Former Life Seem to be the Dream

He’s been feminized with harsh chemicals that give him voluptuous breasts, erase his masculine features and shrink his genitals. They also disrupt his psychic health so much that when he’s finally allowed to wake up completely, he no longer knows who the woman looking at him from the mirror is. Finally, he is sold into sexual slavery.

He will spend the rest of his life in a harem in Asia, and his freedom and masculinity will seem like no more than a fleeting dream he once had.

This story contains a lot of steamy, graphic sex and explores some of our deepest fantasies. As one reader put it, the story is ”deeply provocative, the story took me everywhere I hoped it would and awakened desires I never dared to acknowledge before. I have a new favorite author.”

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Cuckold Cleans the Cum

Cuckolding is a special relationship about power, loss, humiliation, and love. Making your cuckold lick up your lover’s cum is one of the most powerful parts.

Cuckolding, at least as I mean it, is not simply just enjoying another guy while you’re married. That could be “cheating” or “swapping” or being in an “open relationship,” or something like that. Cuckolding is more about the relationship you have with your husband while someone else is with you. Specifically, he’s your sub – he’s submissive to you – and he gets off on the fact that you look outside the relationship for someone who is more dominant than he is. Or he might, as in the case of my husband, simply be turned on by my going with other men and being pleasured by them – I’m never a sub.

Anyway, the challenge for us women who are into cuckolding is to keep twisting that knife in our husband’s heart. That sounds cold, but it isn’t. What is more smoking than looking your husband in the eye as he watches you taken by another man and brought to orgasm? What’s hotter than petting your husband’s poor, caged, limp and soft dick while another guy penetrates you with his big, hard one? Or from his perspective, what’s more thrilling than watching your woman’s face as she begins her orgasm?

If he’s caged, you know your husband would be hard if you’d let him! But you don’t, and that compounds the loss he already feels as he watches you being taken. And it’s this loss that turns him on more than anything else.

He thrives on the powerful mix of feelings, the way people used to mix uppers and downer drugs, I guess. Anyway, it’s just as addictive for the guy who starts down that path. And for the woman, it is also a rush – a rush of power, being powerfully desired by two men, but only needing to pleasure one, the power of dishing out such a strong mixture of feelings for your husband or boyfriend, the power of controlling him. And of course the sensual pleasure of having different lovers, often more than one at a time.

But I digress! My point here is that cum is the height and essence of your husband’s humiliation. Watching it jet into his wife’s pussy, or drip out of it, is hardwired into the average man as the most powerfully negative thing there is. And when it’s combined with a passionate love of the woman doing it, it gives him a rush like none other. So make him watch that, and then make him experience it in more than one way. Rub his face in it, so he feels and smells it.

And make him lick it up so he tastes it and also participates in the humiliation. Make him end up with the sperm that violated him by going into your pussy. Make him make you cum again while he cleans you up so that he feels, again, how powerful it all is to you and how good it feels for you. Combining that with the frustration of keeping him locked will make him all the more powerfully addicted to the experience and to you.

So make him lick you clean every time. It seals your relationship all the more powerfully, pleases your lover, and feels good for you.