New Book: The Disastrous Bet, or How I became a Woman against my Will

Heavily in debt after an unwise weekend binge in Las Vegas, Chad and Marianne Brown accept an impulsive bet from a mysterious businessman. One hand of blackjack: if Chad wins, the businessman will give the couple the $25,000 they need to resume their lives. If he loses, they still get the money – in the form of a loan. The catch is that Chad must agree to a process of feminization – one change every week for a year

One Man’s Story of Forced Feminization, Humiliation, Denial and Cuckoldry. And revenge.

Heavily in debt after an unwise weekend binge in Las Vegas, Chad and Marianne Brown accept an impulsive bet from a mysterious businessman. One hand of blackjack: if Chad wins, the businessman will give the couple the $25,000 they need to resume their lives.

If he loses, they still get the money – in the form of a loan. The catch is that Chad must agree to a process of feminization – one change every week for a year or until the money is repaid, with ten percent interest per month – or their home reverts to the businessman.

 
After Chad loses, it begins simply enough, but as his body gradually changes, and his clothes get more and more feminine he starts to have doubts. When he feels his inner desires changing too, it gets alarming. Meanwhile, Marianne has found a better job and is paying off all their other debts and insists that they must continue through with the deal as agreed so they can live the good life Chad always promised her.

 
After unknowingly being subjected to hormone treatment part of the way through the year, Chad is rendered impotent. He is distressed, and Marianne’s cheerful “adjustments” to everything that happens, and her apparent passion for the man who made the bet with Chad and now holds the reins, make him more doubtful than ever. Their bedroom behavior also leave him feeling more degraded and less of a man than ever.

 
Chad is inexorably becoming “Jennifer,” and as everyone is starting to treat him like a woman, his old self feels like a distant memory. Marianne, though, has never had so much fun, and when she develops a relationship with the man who is feminizing Chad, Chad begins to wonder whether he’ll ever be back to himself, and whether Marianne wants him back the way he was. He even starts wondering whether the game he lost was completely honest.

 
And then there comes a moment of truth that changes everything.

 
This is Chad’s story, told through the words of his journal, with a preface by Jennifer.

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It’s a Woman’s World, Part 3

Peter’s been slaving hand and foot for Christine, but now she’s gotten tired of him “lazing around” and sent him back to work at AWWI. Time for Peter to get more education.

It’s a Woman’s World, Part 3, “Back to Work” is now out. In this episode, Peter, who has been slaving hand and foot for  Christine is sent back to AWWI because she is tired of him “lazing around.”

It’s time for him to get more education and to put some of what he’s learned to work. It’s a horrible case of forced-feminization and diabolical cruelty and manipulation as the story of Peter and Christine takes yet more twists and turns. In this episode, you start to see that A Woman’s World, Inc., is larger than it seemed, with plans to get even bigger. For some reason, Peter is a big part of its plans.

This is a story of forced feminization and involves a lot of really mean stuff!

You can get it on Amazon

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It’s A Woman’s World Pt. 3

What I really like about forced feminization stories is that they are so Kafkaesque. You presuppose a sweeping conspiracy where nobody has a conscience. They say crazy things, but since they all back each other up, the person in the middle comes to doubt himself and doesn’t know what to believe. It DOES happen in real life

Almost Done!

Just a brief announcement today to people who are waiting… I have almost finished writing It’s a Woman’s World, Part 3. In this part, some of the secrets behind the fiendish world of It’s a Woman’s World start getting revealed.

As I explained recently to a friend, what I really like about forced feminization stories is that they are so Kafkaesque. You presuppose a sweeping conspiracy where nobody has a conscience. They say crazy things, but since they all back each other up, the person in the middle comes to doubt himself and doesn’t know what to believe.

It is believable, and things like this can and do happen, because we are such social animals. Again I say that It’s a Woman’s World is fiction – completely made up – but do I think there are or could be organizations at work in the world just like it? I’m convinced there are. I hope, therefore, that as kinky and weird as this story is, you will take it as a serious exploration of the human psyche. I think you’ll love it.

A Call to Kink

I’m a live and let live kind of girl. BDSM sex is normal behavior and can give you more pleasure than vanilla sex. You should try it.

I am a believer in, “to each his or her own.” If it isn’t hurting someone else or creating bad things in the world that will hurt someone else, and people like doing it, then why not cheer it on? There are so many things going on in the world, and so many possibilities that one can, or might, explore, that it is almost impossible to decide what is really normal or healthy behavior. It’s a waste of time trying to do that, and a waste of life to hold yourself back from exploring.

Readers of my blog or writing know that I frequent some of those worlds of possibility. One of those is the “Woman’s World.” I also spend a lot of time in the world of cuckolding.

On the surface, I know, it seems that the worlds I create with my writing are hurting people, and there is a nefarious plot behind the It’s a Woman’s World series. It might be hard for the button-down crowd to see It’s a Woman’s World as serious literature that happens to involve a lot of kinky d/s (domination/submission) sex as a serious piece of literature, but it is one. I call it erotica, but it might also be considered a very dark psychological thriller.

But I digress.

My point is that for the most part the characters in my stories are making free choices. Some are happier than others, maybe, but these choices are almost all (at least) within the reaches of normal behavior. Every woman must at some time have fantasized about making love to someone else in front of the fascinated gaze of someone whose intense desire she wanted to stir. We all think that having people mad with desire for us, while we pick and choose whom, if anybody, we wish to please, is erotically stimulating. And almost every – if not actually every – man has at times fantasized about seeing his woman with another man. It’s wired into us.

Either as a pleasure or as punishment. And the weird thing, as we all know, is that there is a place where erotic pleasure and pain seem to merge. BDSM fantasies are one such area, and for many men that means the cuckold fantasy. Feminization is a step further out there, with “forced” being implied as a sort of permission. Isn’t that what submission is all about anyway? Permission to do what taboo forbids.

There is a chemical reason for this. Everyone has heard of endorphins, the pleasure-giving substance that our bodies create at times. Well, our bodies create it in response to weird things (like the smell of vanilla, for example), sexual pleasure, and pain. It appears that our bodies counteract painful situations by releasing pleasure-giving endorphins. That creates the paradoxical effect of pain giving sexual pleasure, and when that pain and its accompanying endorphins are combined with other sexual stimuli that are physically pleasurable, the pleasure can be significantly greater than the pleasure given in straight, non-kinky sex.

And that is why, I am convinced, so many people who taste d/s sex never fully lose the taste for it in the future. In a way, that makes my stories and those like them, dangerous. But no one ever needs to do anything they don’t want to do. Freedom is dangerous, in a way, but it’s what life is all about, too.

Enjoy yourselves. Let yourselves experience things on the fringe. Don’t hurt yourselves or other people, but check out another world. You might find an incredible amount of pleasure and satisfaction if you do. Spread the word!

It’s a Woman’s World

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The “World” of It’s a Woman’s World

It’s a Woman’s World is fiction. It’s completely made up. But it could be true, as extreme as it is.

To recap a little bit, let me remind you that the story is set in Suburbia, U.S.A. Peter Sartorius and his wife Christine live in a nondescript house. They have credit cards that carry a balance, and they don’t have many intimate friends. They don’t go to clubs or have outside commitments to speak of, so they are insular. Peter is distant from his family, and Christine’s family is never mentioned. Peter and Christine have each other, and that’s getting problematic at the beginning of the story. Peter’s been out of work.

Peter’s highly skilled, well-trained, and  has a life-long pattern of medium to high achievement, but he lost his job in a downsizing and, as a person over forty, has been struggling to get another one. It’s been months, and things have gotten strained. Christine finds him a job prospect in an unlikely place: “A Woman’s World, Inc.”

Despite his misgivings, Peter goes and is immediately faced with difficult choices, which, like most people faced with such a situation, he makes without fully understanding the consequences.

What makes A Woman’s World different than most people’s real world is that AWWI has a mission unlike what most of us ever encounter (luckily). What that mission is doesn’t become clear in Part 1 of the story, and won’t be clearly revealed until Part 3 or 4. However, one of its functions is obviously to feminize Peter. It starts with little things and rapidly progresses to more. Peter quickly loses his freedom as he makes choices which, while independently rational, lead him to worse and worse conditions. His isolation makes escape nearly impossible.

If you have ever read a book by Robert Cialdini, Influence, you will recognize some of the techniques used by AWWI. Cialdini was fascinated with brain washing. Among other things, he studied and reported on some of the techniques used by the Vietnamese and Chinese governments during the Vietnamese War. Little things, like having people sign “statements” or “confessions,” for example, turned out to be big (and that’s why “contracts” are so often used in bdsm relationships). The brain washers realized that prisoners who signed things, even when coerced to do so, were later powerfully influenced by them because they forgot or discounted the coercion and credited their own agency. Then they felt they had to be consistent with their previous statements.

Peter signs many things and becomes confused about his own motivations and desires.

Closer to home, you will probably recognize the “good-cop/bad-cop” routine used so often in It’s a Woman’s World. In a world controlled by people trying to control you, where do you turn? Poor Peter has nowhere to turn – nowhere at all. Christine is surprisingly unhelpful, but having no one else, Peter continually relies on her.

The purposes of AWWI are not clear yet, but – without giving away the plot too much – let me say that its purposes are consistent with organizations that do exist and act throughout the world at the present time. It’s a Woman’s World, in other words, is fiction, but the world it represents is unfortunately a part of our world, the “real” world.

It is kink, but it is serious kink!

If interested, you can get It’s a Woman’s World, Parts 1 and 2 (combined) at Amazon:

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Committed to the New Job – It’s a Woman’s World, Part 2

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A Diabolical Story of Forced Feminization, Intrigue and Power

This is Part 2 of the series. If you have not already purchased part 1, you may want to get the “Complete Story – A Woman’s World – The New Job,” which includes this Part 2.

If you’re interested in a diabolical tale of feminization, ruthless domination, and the conversion of an ordinary guy into a submissive, feminized worker, you’ll like this story.

And if you like Powerful and Erotic Sex Scenes, you’ve Come to the Right Place!

Because there are a few that will turn on anybody who likes domination and submission, whether you’re dom or sub.

And you’ll find out who the mysterious “clients” are.

His Desperation Sets Him up to be Feminized by a Ruthless Firm

Peter is a guy who needs a job, badly. He’s been out of work for several months, money is getting short and credit card bills are getting big. His wife, Christine, is putting on the pressure. Then all the sudden it looks like some good luck has come his way. Christine has found a job opening advertised in a women’s magazine.

He interviews, only to face a series of difficult and confusing conditions which require his immediate agreement or the loss of his job. His compromises are constantly portrayed and documented as requests granted by management. And he finds himself writing down “notes” that put him in a worse and worse position.

He’s Required to Cross-dress and Faces Constant Humiliation

In order to get this job, which does advertise good pay and benefits, Peter is presented choice after choice forcing him into a corner. It starts with “neutral” clothing which can’t include men’s clothes, and goes from there.

He’s thoroughly Turned into “One of the Girls”

Peter is expected to undress in the presence of the women of the office, they touch him freely in the most intimate places, but then he’s disciplined for showing off his inadequate “member,” leading to his greatest humiliation yet. He’s given perfume to wear and unlabeled vitamins to take…

A Woman’s World, Inc., Markets to Women – Although What they Sell Isn’t Clear

Peter isn’t told exactly what products or services AWWI provides, and the people identified as clients are silent, wistful, and kept out of sight. Peter just knows he’ll have to know all of the female products from experience, and he finds himself dressed in g-strings and heels, all while being reassured that they are as gender-neutral as possible…

Peter keeps expecting Christine to take his side, but her acceptance of the strange conditions imposed by AWWI, and her insistence that Peter keep the job, keeps the pressure on.

Meanwhile, Christine is Turning into a Dominatrix who likes BDSM

Christine, who hadn’t been very sexual with Peter for years, suddenly begins to initiate hot sex. It can get desperate and uncomfortable for Peter, and her delight in squeezing his balls, spanking and pegging him, and making him ask her to hurt him keeps him off guard.

But he does find her new assertiveness attractive nonetheless.

It’s a Woman’s World – The New Job”

Committed to the New Job is a story of forced feminization, intrigue, power, sex and denial. It’s the first in a series that will explore what happens when Peter takes a job with a marketing firm that specializes in serving women and immediately start to feminize Peter so that he can “fit in.”

It doesn’t end with cross-dressing, humiliation, and feminization. It explores poor Peter as he is forced increasingly into a female-led relationship with a dominatrix. When a chastity cage is put on Peter to keep him from displaying his “clitoris,” Christine goes wild, teasing him mercilessly, laughing at him, pulling him around by the balls, and dominating him in every way.

Feminization, Cross-dressing, Submission, Sissies, and Forced Feminization

Is Any of this BDSM?

As many people reading this will know, I have recently published It’s a Woman’s World, Parts 1 and 2 (combined in one volume)(at Amazon.com; at Amazon.co.uk). It is a story involving a fiendish series of events leading to the increasing “feminization” of the protagonist, Peter Sartorius. He’s forced in a variety of ways to take on the role of a submissive woman, first at work, and eventually at home, and the process is a sort of psychological study.

Many of my followers on Pinterest call themselves “cross-dressers,” others who call themselves “sissies,” and many others who fall in various places on the d/s (domination/submission) spectrum. Many of these have cuckold fantasies, which were originally my entry into this world.

A Personal Note

If I may be personal for a second, I have found it hot to make my husband dress in panties when he witnesses me with another man. Originally, that was because of the other man’s desire, as a sort of indication that everything we were doing was consensual and safe, and that Alex wouldn’t suddenly go “postal” on us. But yes, it became more than that because it came to symbolize Alex’s helpless submission to my dominance. It symbolized my power over him, and my availability and “safety” to my lovers. A Pavlovian response was inevitable, I suppose, and now I just think it’s sexy as hell and am not sure why.

Feminization for Men

What it has meant to Alex is more complicated. He loves women, so the obvious thought that his being required to dress up as a woman was some sort of per se humiliation doesn’t work. There is a heterosexual stereotype in play, I think, though. There’s a sense that one of us is the “man,” signified by dominance and free sexual access to the “woman,” more complexly signified. And then there’s the man stripped of his manhood and power, forced to be a feminized onlooker watching his woman be satisfied by the (other) man. Doesn’t that just make you tingle? A little? Be honest!

Feminization and Power

It made me tingle in a way much different than vanilla group sex because of the POWER element. And it makes my Pinterest followers tingle. There’s an element of coercion, but mostly it is voluntary. Alex most definitely does not feel “pretty” when he’s forced to wear panties, nor does he feel feminine. He’s not interested in other men sexually. What he does with them is an expression of my will over him. What he does to the other men is an expression of our relationship, and if he is required – as he often is! – to please other men, he views it as a form of sex with me.

Cross-Dressers

Cross-dressers on the other hand, get something else out of what they do. Many of them say they do it in response to feeling “pressured.” If you’re one of these, I’d love to hear more about this. What sort of pressure is relieved by cross-dressing?

Sissies

Maybe it’s the desire to be a “sissy.” A sissy is a guy who dresses very provocatively as a woman. He’s not “just a woman,” he’s a “slut.” Many wear high heels, tight dresses, makeup, and other things in an effort to look like a woman. And a lot of them are very hot! Many of them fantasize about fooling other men and having sex with them. A lot of them may fantasize about being forced into doing it, but as far as I can tell, it’s what they want. They like having sex with men. Alex isn’t like that, but I’d like to see someone who is in action.

Forced Feminization – Forced to Submit by Power from Outside

Forced Feminization is something else. In It’s a Woman’s World, Peter does not want to become womanly at all at first. He hates being made to wear women’s clothes and fulfill “women’s roles” at the job. He does it for economic reasons which gradually become more and more blurred as the process continues. And who is causing it all to happen? Why are they doing it? That’s the big mystery of the story and gives it some real intellectual content and an interesting story.

But being forced to submit and then gradually giving in to the process as it changes your character and options in life is a much more fundamental psychological drama, played out by almost all of us. Many people allow themselves to be changed by their jobs. Peter, dressed in miniskirts and heels, with his cosmetics and sculpted pink nails, is just more obvious than most.